Anxiety

There is a new challenge out there on the horizon and I am scared ----less! I mean, I know that sounds comical, but I mean it. Someone suggested to me that I might go further in life than I had planned. Just typing it scares me. But...I realize that what I have had in mind is something more manageable, which is what I've always done. I've never had faith to let go of that much control before. I still don't. BUT, I'm praying for it (that's new, and is progress). And the discipline needed to go with it. Because without one, the other doesn't go very far--at least that's been my experience for most of my life. So maybe there's something to that theory. On the other hand, nothing good comes out of me, that isn't of you, Lord. The rest is just filty rags...so maybe I'll crawl out onto that scary (what feels like very tenuous) limb and risk asking for something impossible one more time, and see where it lands. So far, you haven't let me down, although I'm constantly tormented to believe that you will, eventually, which is where all my fear comes from. Father, please deliver me from the tormentor--please, please, please.